waiting!!!

Explain to me why it is that when your waiting for that Mr. right no1 comes? Then when I've fully come to terms with the prospect of being single "HE" comes along! Is he my 'MR. BIGG'?? (Lol how funny that whenever life seems to be not going to plan i turn to any movie or any fictional story for a shred of hope!!) back to my point 'HIM', meaning the being in which pushed me towards blogging so i don't self implode (and u tricia girl!).
Why is it 12.30am and I'm still waiting for this promised phone call an hour after i was told 2mins. i mean i know black people's time but damn!
In all honesty i don't know if i pushing it with him to get over the Baby father drama! there ain't no other like it! lol! But he is all the way in JA so rather than feel overcrowded he has me feeling the complete opposite, neglected!! What is wrong with me is his 3 calls a day not enough! lol! Do i really need another Jamaican in my life??? My baby father (who once seemed to be my world) really put a lack of faith in my own nation! But every guy cheats and no matter where they come from it would not have an effect on my lack of trust on the male species as a whole!!
So thus where I'm at with HIM no matter what, my mistrust will surely sour any hope of any flower blooming, not to mention the fact that he might as well be a million years away!!! But just the thought of him makes me smile and makes my heart start to pump to the beat of any love song! lol! so if this is total true why does Keri Hilson - intuition be seem to be on repeat on my ipod!
I guess I'm kinda frightened of being alone, especially since my baby father has a child due this month. I think I'm just clinging so i don't deal with my real issues....WTF!! There is hardly much to deal with, he having a baby so i better get over it and fast, an no other man is gonna help me do that!!
Jenny francis putting me to bed every night....why cant august hurry up and come!!! Rain is falling and i need some sun in my life i deserve it!
WAIT after proof reading its all so doom and gloom, but when my angel smiles she makes everything worth while. Makes every broken piece of my heart piece back together. I'm thankful and praise the Lord everyday for bringing her into my life.
Now all i need 2 do is be content with my life being just me & her!
So on that note I'm turning off the cell, gonna cuddle with my bubba and turn my back on finding Mr. Right!
(wow my 1st blog has felt like a therapy i feel so relaxed!)